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A dirge for her the doubly dead!  
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Comics...

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 22, 2008, 1:21 PM
  • Mood: Angsty
I LOVE to draw and to write... In the future I really hope to be a manga-ka/ comic artist and writer, with a little bit of animation and concept work on the side lol <cheers for art school next year!>... But I have always had some strange issue about actually showing anyone any of my comics. What I do end up showing them are bits and pieces; a few random character sketches , small parts of my storyboard or dialog. Just enough that they usually end up liking the story, but not enough to actually put everything together. It's all just randomness >.<

And when people become interested, it sometimes just gets worse. Sometimes it just makes me a self-deprecating ball of emo-ness about my own drawings! I mean, I'm still in love with the drawing and the writing itself, but I become too critical to show others and sometimes just stop in the middle of a story...

I tend to be fairly good at taking criticism from others, but for some reason I cannot handle it from myself. But this is what I want to do with my life... I want to write and I want to draw and I want to share my stories. Perhaps I will have to hire a little 'elf' to steal my finished work while I sleep for submission, lol. Either that or figure out a way to stop being so self-critical >.< But, then again, isn't that a mark of most artists? lol Damn you muse! 'Tis all love/hate, lol.

In conclusion, I have... Um... The spirit world one, the evolution vs. religion one, the christian mythology one, two with vampires, the conjoined twins one, the 'not-so-strange' family one, the Doctor Who fan thingy, the Blood Ties fan thingy, the X-Men fan thingy and, most importantly (right now, anyways) my Naruto fan thingy... I MUST FINISH AND SHOW OTHERS! lol... Just be patient and eventually you will see. I am not as bad as I think, lol.

No Pet Pictures!!!

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 11, 2007, 12:18 AM
  • Mood: Dumbfounded
I just realized that I have absolutely no piccies of my many pets. I should really get some up here. I guess that I shall start with my ratties. But, of course, I only have pictures of Yami, Yumi and Hana... Of which only Yami and Hana are still with me (Yumi passed away a few months ago). And I have NO pictures on this computer of Hana's surprise babies (damn store sold her to me pregnant!). Nor the girlies out of that litter which I kept (Sayuri, Sakura and Ayame). And I cannot seem to find ANY pictures of my family's new basset puppy on this PC either >.<... Dammit, I must go searching! But meh, lol. And how are you?

Remembering my grandfather and those who fought an

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 11, 2007, 12:34 AM
  • Mood: Unhappy
Google him, I dare you... Or even my great uncle, just give it a try. Gilbert and Verner Wurm of Arnprior, Ontario, Canada, both of the Royal Rifles of Canada and both Japanese POWs in Hong Kong during World War II. If you do, you might just stumble across the great injustice that they, and many others, were dealt by the Japanese and our own government, both during and long after the war ended. The wounds that they received have never healed and they never will... Not until the get the acknowledgement and honor they so deserve.
(See [link])

Sadly, though, my grandfather and great uncle will never get a chance to see this day, just as I never got a chance to see them. But, hopefully, they will rest more easily when it comes.

Did I lose you there a little? How about I clue you in... During World War II my grandfather and great uncle both joined the Royal Rifles of Canada. Along with thousands of other young men and women, they were sent over seas to fight for the family, home and country.

My mother tells me that one day their group was on patrol and encountered a river. They asked for volunteers to swim across to see if there were Japanese on the other side (even though, as she tells me, those in charge already knew that there were). My great uncle Verner (that's Ver-ner, not Ver-nen) was one of those volunteers. So he bravely swam, but was immediately captured. Everyone, including my grandfather, thought that he was dead for a very long time. That was until the rest of the Royal Rifles were captured when they lost the battle of Hong Kong.
The Royal Rifles and the Winnipeg Grenadiers were sent to Japanese POW camps in Hong Kong, where my grandfather was reunited with my great uncle. But their happiness must have been overshadowed by the atrocities which they faced. My grandfather found my great uncle bound and beaten, broken and starving.

They were all forced to work in a mine at the camp. They were expected to survive on nearly nothing food-wise and their wounds and diseases ignored. They were put in a position where their choices were either work or die. And for my uncle, this was dire.

He had contracted beriberi ([link]), which is caused by a vitamin deficiency and lead to his feet swelling and turning black. And since my grandfather knew the alternative to not working, every night when they returned from the mine he would rub my great uncles feet so that he could work the next day.

Sadly, I do not know much else. Other then the fact that they both survived the horrors of the camp and both came home to marry and start a family. I also know that it left my grandfather in such poor physical and emotional shape that he passed away from a heart attack when my mother was still a kid.

I don't know what to say... I wish that I could have met my grandfather... I wonder what he would have thought of me and my drawings and stories... I wonder if we would have gotten along, as he drew and wrote as well... I wonder if he would be going with my mother and I to the War Museum here in the Capital to listen to my cousin sing... To see the non-existent memorial to the men that our country forgot... To see the little blurb about the POWs and the long speech about how the Japanese were treated here... But, I cannot hold this darkness with me... Just the wonder and the hope that the future will be better and the knowledge that the past will not be forgotten.

Outed!

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 20, 2007, 1:18 PM
  • Mood: Optimism
My name is Kaitlyn and I am a straight, white girl... But, when it comes to other people, you can be black, white, red, brown, green, purple, gay, straight, bi a guy or a girl and I really wouldn't care. As long as you are kind and respectful towards me and those whom I consider my friends and loved ones. But it seems, sadly, that most people are not like me. They chose to be racist, or sexist or homophobic bigots and desperately cling to something which makes them feel better then everyone (even though they are, in fact a moral cancer on society). That is why I think that it is so amazing that JK Rowling has outed Dumbledore.
Just last week I was talking with a friend of mine who is getting a table to sell art at an anime convention with me next year. I tend to do my own thing, and she specializes in yaoi (guy couples) and yuri (girl couples)... She opted to leave Dumbledore and Grindelwald of her list for posters! Now she is definitely going to have to update!
The way she revealed this was just amazing. So many people had already fallen in love with and grown to respect and admire the character which she had created. In outing him now, people are forced to see that there is truly no differences and that it did not change the character.
Perhaps, in seeing this, it will change the opinions of some and create a foundation for acceptance and understanding in the children and adults alike who have read these books.

My Sister

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 30, 2007, 9:13 PM
My sister and I are a rarity. We were both born in the same year, just eleven months apart. It's called "Irish twins", a term which was originally meant as something deurogitory towards the catholic Irish. But it has always meant a unique connection for the two of us. Who else but actual twins can say that they were each other's first memory?
But now she's hurting. She has been for a while, but it is getting worse. And I cannot help her. I cannot save her. She just lets the darkness around her in so much. And it breaks her heart and makes her cold and angry. And I wish so much that I could just reach in and take it out of her. To rescue her from herself. But, no matter what, she's strong and proud. She would never really let me. So all I can do is cry.
And now she is going back to the hospital for two months. Two more months out of a life time that we will be apart. I held her as she cried, said I loved her and would miss her. But words are useless and anything more just dies in my throat.
I wrote the kanji for life and the rune of protection on the back of her left hand. Touch them and think of me, my dear sister. For I will be thinking of you. Nothing but fondness on baited breath for your return.

  • Mood: Miserable